My feet weren't made for the sea

They were made to be free.

And a family filled day it was. I really don't have much family nor family members but I count my friends as family. Although I saw my friends the past two or three days, I spent today with my sister, whom I haven't seen in a while, and my parents. It was also nice to go out for dinner for the first time in a while, all four of us. Fat burger counts as a family restaurant. A dinner then a movie. Date night? Not exactly. We saw Julie & Julia, thank god I ate before or else I would have eaten everything in my vision right when I got home. Everything looked sooo good in the movie it would make a fat woman over dose in her seat.

I tried making a constellation out of freckle like birthmarks on my upper right arm. It came out to look like a pizza. Well that was that. Also, I downloaded a bunch of free music, not so shitty music. Some techno, not so big on techno nor dance/ trance music. Some people already are deeply informed, but there are a couple songs so whatever.

man vs wild premier, I'm pretty excited seeing that he's my boyfriend and all. Fuck his children and wife.


WHOO REEADS THIS SHHIT?!!

Ten things

Please don't think of me as materialistic. I may be but I don't know.

1. A love life
2. Happiness
3. Molskin[=]e
4. Musica
5. Certain friends
6. Melancholy death of Oyster boy, my favorite book
7. Telephone
8. Asspod
9. Seester, I don't know if this falls under #5
10. My pups and family.

Well I thought NONE of that through. It all just came to mind. As of an hour ago, I've been alone in my room. My friends left and I'm now here with my dog who is asleep behind my neck. It kind of looks like a small fox scarf except with a puppy face. It literally felt like my friend stayed at my house for a week. It was great, I thought today was tuesday and yesterday was monday and monday was sunday. Jesus christ was I wrong. So I wrote the wrong date on a check. Not good at all.

When I was little I used to love to not know what date or day it was during the summer cause then it actually felt like a summer. Me not knowing what the date was made everything go by so slow. And it did. Tomorrow is thursday market and Jurassic Park at the Fox theatre! Gaalsdkflkghkldjf. I love evurthing.

Good morning sunshine turd. They fart aaaall over each other. It's cute.

The wall

Wow so my my music phase today is Flo Rida. No joke, Flo Rida and Gritts and Immortal Technique. Doowwn hill.. You say he's just a friend is probably my favorite song. And Ohh Ahh.

Last night was amazing. Pageant of the Masters was amazing, everything was amazing. That's really all I can use to describe it. I have to learn more adjectives to describe awesome things. It made my week :)

This is what I woke up to.

I made a list of movies I'd like to see. Well, when they come out. Some are out.

- (500) Days of Summer
- Away We Go
- An Education
- Adam
- I Sell The Dead
- New York, I Love You
- Paper Heart
- Paris
- Holmes
- Taking Woodstock
- NOT New Moon. Fags.
- What Goes Up
- Where The Wild Things Are (a must)
- Whip it
- White on Rice

I get free movie trailers and I had nothing to do at 3 am so why not?

Always always always

When I'm out of school, everyone goes back to work to continue their lives and I never have a ride anywhere. I just sit in my room and watch my dog discreetly steal my shoes and drag them all to his bed. I just lay here on this stupid computer, but I have to admit, when I was in school, I wished I was alone at home on this stupid computer. I'm a little excited to start school. In a way not really because people I used to go to school for, won't be there anymore. That's a number of people too. I still have to call my Little sister. Every junior gets and incoming freshman to man handle. I don't get the purpose of it really. I'm sharing mine with my best friend so I can't complain. I watched two movies last night and found the remote control to my laptop.

This is what I walk into everyday. Except most of the time it's made because I don't leave my bed unmade.

All by myself

Good Good Good Good Good Good.

Postage

Cleaning cleaning and moving and more cleaning. I noticed today that I have music phases. I don't know why I have them, I just do. I don't mind this weird new found characteristic of mine, it's nice sometimes because it's great music and it feels good just to listen to it. I once had an opera phase for two days with one of my friends in like seventh grade. Nice to try new things.

We hat. End of story. Liz looks like Cheeseasaurus Rex.

I'm here

I wonder how many types of tea there are. I think the one I'd like to try is the Blossom Tea like in Marie Antoinette. We all listened to awesome 90s music, always a great way to relax. 90s music, tea, crackers, and camel crushes. I was at awe with everything. It would have been better if one of my other friends could have come, but it was nice anyways. Now I've resorted to watching The Real World, which I am now changing it because I hate it. I also hate LMFAO. What a stupid waste of a band. Not even, a group. The Real World is full of sex and stupids. Yeah, stupids. I'm still very excited for Devendra!!

Snorkeling in space

They should have that in the future. Scuba diving? I'm sure that's basically what astronauts are. Deep space scuba divers. Such a great day, a great beginning to a great greatness for me. Went shopping, good thing I hate it because I didn't find shit. Went to a piercing parlor in long beach to look at wooden and or bone gages only to discover how expensive they are for the size I'm getting. I bought two vinyls today at fingetprints on 2nd street. Animal Collective and Iron and Wine ft Calexico. How sweet it is. All I can say is woop.

Everything is illuminated

I came home, watched a pirated korean version of Everything is Illuminated online but fell asleep fifteen minutes in and woke up at around seven o' clock. I hate waking up after an "end of the day nap" because you think it's the next day and you don't know what time it is and basically it feels like you been asleep for days. When I was little, that used to scare the shit out of me.

Tomorrow is my last day and I couldn't be any happier, I actually couldn't be any happier right now. Everything is just making me happy. Minus studying |:(. No one likes studying for finals, but we get to use a cheat sheet kind of thing so I'm writing everything of my mathematical knowledge down on the piece of paper. I should pass because it's a regular sized piece of paper and I don't write big at all and there's a lot of information. Woopwoop, I'm set. And I got brain food todayz :D

Requiem of a dream

I want this week to go by faster! I'm almost done with school and I am so fucking ecstatic for my three weeks of summer I have left. It doesn't really matter how many more days or weeks. I just love what's going to be coming up. I got tickets to upcoming shows, hanging out with friends, doing things I've been wanting to do all summer but couldn't, seeing people I've been wanting to see all summer. It's great. Wasn't the best one yet but it's getting there. On top of everything, it's shark week and I got an awesome movie in the mail. It's not SLC Punk btw. I watched that on Netflix.com.

I'm just really happy and stressed at the same time :)

I'll end up like Sean in my future.

It'll happen

Today I was thinking and I got this feeling. I'm going to be seventeen next month. Seventeen, almost eighteen, almost an adult. I may be thinking a huge deal about a birthday or a number I am turning. I'm turning seventeen and I'm nothing. I'm only sixteen now but does that make a difference. Some people are already on their way. I feel stupid for thinking this but I can't expect for me to change over night. I'm being faced with facts every day that I will have to use in my future and I let it go in one ear and out the other. I'm not forcing myself to be a way.

It would be easier if I appreciated more things I guess. Sometimes I feel like nothing compared to other people my age or almost my age. Whether they're a little younger or a little older. They're them, I'm me. Not much I can do about that. See, you ask me what I think about when I'm quiet. They ask me why I think or what I think of. I'm not stupid and I'm not smart. This sounds like an ode to me. Something I'll become sooner or later. Just don't tell me what to do or what I should do. I'm fine.

Well that all lacked intelligence. I just read everything back. I sound like a whinny child. Scratch all that I just said.

Alter

This literally sums up everything. There's a part two.



This one's a bit much and a bit too long.

We cross bridges

I look like shit. It is currently 2:13am and I left my room to get something to nibble on and I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror and I totally forgot about my make up. I'm so used to not wearing any at all or not so much or vis versa, I forget to take it off. Stupid girl shit I tell you. Who has time. If you have time to die, you don't have time to put on make up. Write that down.

I met so many animals today. Saw many vegetables, a magic show and some guy blow glass. Andrew and I share the same hate for ravers wearing obnoxiously too much kandy. It all was so interesting I didn't want to leave. I just typed all of that with my eyes closed. They're super dry. This is a deep fried twinky. I've been waiting almost six years to have this heart attack looking pastry. It turned out it was alright, but not something I would have twice.

Later on today, my friend lauren and I are going "backpacking" up a hill in villa park. Well we're going to try to. We always want to do fun things but when we plan them, they hardly ever work out. But first, we skate. I skate, she's gay.

There come a time

When you learn to stop dealing with people. It's totally cool now, I mean I've learned the hard way not to take things so seriously and not to think about them every waking minute or second of the day even though it was extremely hard. I've got my mind straight. Woopwoop

My best friend and I have talking schedules. Every or every other night at exactly eleven o'clock to almost exactly twelve o'clock midnight. We're that good, we have such meaningful conversations they're a "hoot". For reals. (lauren)

OC fair today with my old time best bud Andrew. Gnarly rides, stray animals and odd food. Also sweet jewelry.

I also can't go to sleep. (1:45am) It really pays to have a built in camera. Thank god for iSight.

Deep in the cheap seats

For the third time, today I was told I look like Juno. On my conformation retreat, "You know who you remind me of? 'uh..' JUNO!", same with at regular school. This makes me not like the movie so much. I love Ellen Page dearly, I obviously don't see the similarities that would make someone tell me this. I don't have the forehead, nose or the smirk in every picture. I'm also not Canadian.

Unpacking things is nice, although I'm a little worried about a friend. She's a tough stale cookie, she'll make it out alive. Unlike some people.

Recollective find

I'd be a lunatic if I meant what I'm about to say. If my dog Ottie was a real person, I'd date him. He sits under my desk while I'm doing homework, licks Luna's bowl and falls asleep listening to Acoustic Sublime.

And this little bitch ate my shoelaces while still on my feet.

Air

Skippin school is coo. I hate it there. Anyways, I got a fish yesterday!! It's a female Betta Fish. AKA Siamese fighting fish, but I think that may just be the males. Her name's Luna and she has her own little bowl with spring water and green and brown fake betta food. I now have five pets. Four dogs and a fish. Good thing I could walk all five of them.

I can't let little things get to me so much. What can possibly be it? What can possibly set me off in a matter of minutes/ seconds? No one besides one person will ever know. It'll all be a small little memory in a jar on a shelf in my head like everything else is.

D A N S E

Quick post because I'm going to get picked up to go get french fries. You know what's cool? When people are misunderstood assholes to you. And this isn't directed to a person(s) it's an undirected comment to the world. That's right, I've done it. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to get me some fries.

I'm also upping the plug size tomorrow. W E A K S H I T .

I don't know what's wrong with me today.

Lost Prevention

My room looks so bare for me not going anywhere anytime soon. Things on shelves are down and the collage on my closet door is demolished. I took everything down last night knowing I would not have help today. I don't really feel like writing anything. I agree and I think many people my own age, younger or older agree as well that parents are the permanent ankle weights we need to survive. Two meanings: they aren't going anywhere no matter how much they piss you off and another way for telling you to lose weight.

I was in a pretty good mood this morning while packing and I found a tied tie and a pull over sweater. Lord Voldemort or Hairy Pooter? This is all so sad on my part.

Jesus of books

I've decided that my new backpack I will be getting for school is actually going to be the backpack I've been using for almost four years now in three different schools. The only thing different will be the erased writing people wrote from my old school parks and the new addition will be the street light patch on the Team Zissou beanies. I will make one of my own.

I should start my record collection now. First to buy, Cold War Kids or Animal Collective or Fleet Foxes. My sister is expecting something great, so I'll make it out to be.

Oversized breakfast? Or really small hands?
BOTH!