Shut Up

I've been feeling like such a loser lately. Everyone is getting their UC booklets in their counselor meetings. How am I supposed to go to a good college if I can't even afford a good high school. I emphasise good because sunny hills is not a good high school. Thats a whole other story.

Needless to say, every morning when I'm sitting in my first period or getting out of my car or standing at my locker, I wouldn't hate god if he struck me dead right then and there. He'd be doing me a favor for once.

Le bel été

Ohh the goodies I come across



There is nothing I love more than finding new music that is downloadable

Don't forget to cry at your own burial

I woke up, grabbed my computer and began to download as much miike snow as I could. All results into success. I went to veronese last night with paul, which was very nice.

Today is just a day that's closer to monday. Everyone knows that. But just because it is, doesn't mean you can't still do stuff. I will do stuff. I just wish I knew what and when. I really feel like having pho and some really good fortune cookies.

My dreams lately have been odd. Aren't they always? They are. They're starting to irritate me because when I wake up, my lips are chapped, my body is sore and my nose is really dry, almost bloody dry. I do not know what to do about them anymore or how to handle or take what I think about. It's a situation that I've had to deal with for a long time. Since everyone else just sits there and deals with what they can't have, I will do the same.

What a day

Today was the game where I took down my first really fat simoan. Which is borderline a big deal for me because I'm not big or strong or tough at all. I've also realized that a good game is when you realize after how many bloody scratches and bruises you have. Bahaha, Lauren has a sick black eye though.

Pitch was in costa mesa. Beach wasn't too far away..



What a hunk

Set yourself on fire

Tacos for breakfast

Yesterday, I made sure I got all of my homework done so I can go to disneyland later. Finished most of the stuff I figured needed to be done before we went to go watch Captain EO and eat churros. All in which is exactly what we did. Didn't matter if my sister had an ironic mickey mouse shirt with red high top converse on, I didn't have to worry about waking up early :)

There once was a woman who lived in a shoe

and then she died.

Okay soo tuesdays suck. But I'm going to disneyland right now so suck it.



Also, I have a date set for me to die. May 21, 2010 at the Glass House in Pomona. After I see Minus the Bear of course.

Hey Milky Monday

I'll try anything once

We won our three games yesterday. As a result, we have two more today. If we win today, we win the entire tournament. Badassmotherfuckers say what? WHAAATT?!

edit: We won our first game against British Columbia but sadly lost our last game to fucking Fallbrook. Second in the tournament isn't so bad at all. It was extremely intense and amazing. I loved everything about this weekend. Except for the fact that I'm pretty sore, dead tired and workin' the hotest farmers and sock tan.



"I love potatoes and I love meat, I love standing on the corner of this street."

The throes

I held my breath in fear to weep for the fragments of my brain.
See each day's but a moment that I fail hard to regain.
But as it goes the fiddler throws all values to the street.
Captives of this poultry train, we curse our mortal task.
Forgive us though we all must go in where to please don't ask.
For the jails in which I've done my time, I fail hard to regain.



You know that you've been real to those who's realness should be paid.

Oh my damn

I'm on a 'like' rampage on Stumble Upon.
I'll do this some day:



Sorry stupid myspace, I don't have patients for you anymore.

Who in your phone has a heart after their names?
Dumb Jade, she put it in though.

Has someone ever told you they love you and you didn’t say it back?
I don't think so

Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
No.

What was the last thing that made you laugh?
http://www.break.com/index/confused-lamb-cant-find-owner.html

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
Holy god, I don't want to wake up to my house being demolished.

Anyone you’re giving up on?
I wouldn't necessarily call it giving up

Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
Ohh scene-bean Rumor, what would I of done with out you?

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
Sure is

Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
My mom from the grand canyon when I was 4

Who was the last person you hugged?
My pops

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and doesn’t know?
I'm pretty sure they knew

Does everyone deserve a second chance?
I guess it depends on what

Have you ever lost someone who meant a great deal to you?
A great deal indeed, but I'm not sure what you mean by lost so no.

Have you ever received a text message that made you cry?
I have

Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
Ehh no, not at all

Do you think you’ll have the same boyfriend/​​​girlfriend a year from now?
Um this question is not applicable considering I have no one. So I don't think...

Are you lying to yourself about something?
Oprah is NEVER going to end

Are you happier now or three months ago?
I guess you can say I'm happier now

Can you have more than one best friend?
I do

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Iced tea/ some clear soda

Do you have any sisters?
Arrri

Is there someone you just CANNOT stand?
All things disney channel

Last person you went to the mall with?
'Gay bay bay' Jade and A-Suar

What’s special about today?
That I made it possible to fall asleep while on a field in pe.

How do you think tomorrow will be?
The same as every day except closer to the weekend

What does your last message say?
text: 'hahaha you're such a dork'
facebook: 'that deserves a kiss' muahaa

What are you excited for?
My tournament this saturday or the beach some time soon

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
Lizzie......

Last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
I almost cried and threw up from laughing: lauren

Want someone back in your life?
Surre.

Will this Friday be a good one?
I guess, it probably won't be, but it wouldn't matter too much

Do you want to be single or with someone?
Do I want? Again, wouldn't matter too much.

What is the last person you kissed doing right now?
I don't know. He's probably at a tanning salon getting his bronze on.

Do you remember what you wore last night?
Rosary apparel

So, will you be sleeping on the floor tonight?
What's the 'so' for?! No, I have a bed.

Do you want to get married?
Fuck to the no

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Not really

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Cleaning the kitchen

What color is your shirt?
Baaaaaaloo

What woke you up this morning?
Mother

How did you sleep last night?
Like a beebee, but not good enough

Would you rather date someone who is protective or not protective at all?
Both amount to annoying-ness

Ever slept in the same bed with your number 1? (lauren)
Plenty of times ;)

What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother?
You're in love with a piece of shit excuse of a human.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
Watching Mythbusters

Do you get drunk every weekend?
Fuhk yeh, DTF erry day

Do you blow dry your hair?
No, I do not

Has 2010 been good for you so far?
Meeeeeeehhh

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
Uncomfortable as in instant punch in the face..? even if it's a good compliment...

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
Well that didn't sound ghey at all

What plans do you have for the day?
Try to shoot up soy sauce.

When’s the last time you had a headache?
When I woke up in English

Are you happy with the way things are going?
Happy with some things. Whatever about the rest.

Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Haha noo

Do you have your belly pierced?
Like my entire stomach or belly button.....

Siblings?
Arrrri

Do you have feelings for someone?
I do

Where are you?
Where are you??

Can you see the ocean?
Can you see the ocean?? No I can't.

Where do you live?
Where do you live ;)
I live in fullerton........ exciting.

Wheres your mobile phone?
Resting on my belly

How many rings are you wearing?
None

Missing someone?
Always do, suga

Was the last person you kissed 18 or younger?
.....Younger.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
Until Mythbusters was over.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nopes

What was on your mind mostly today?
Shit shit, who the fuck is shooting us? Oh well, fire missiles. Shit guys, we got the missiles are coming, fire our cigarettes shit.

Ever kissed anyone 18 or older?
Yes sir

What are you listening to?
My dad mom and arrri talking about picture prices.

Whens the last time you wrote someone a letter?
Last week to miss lizzie cullen

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
I told myself I wouldn't remove my 6th toe, but I had to.

Do you eat candy daily?
Not exactly.

Do you fight with your parents all the time?
More like make fun of them. And no, I don't

Is your tongue pierced?
Indeed brah..
no

Have you ever met someone who is amazing?
I've met someone who amazes me

Do you pick your words carefully, or just tend to blurt everything out?
Impulsiveness

Do you get annoyed by one word conversations?
I like emoticon conversations. Gibbens knows what's up

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you?
I obviously wouldn't understand what for, but I'm sure.

Are your toe nails painted pink?
Um, no

Do you want to see somebody right now?
Shit, I want to see anyone right now

Who is the last person you took a picture with?
Michael

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Mow, not really.

Do you believe love lasts forever?
Since the TV tells me it does, then it does.
If Brett Michaels can find someone, I can find someone.

What will you be doing tomorrow?
Your mother in the butt.
I'm sorry.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
Arrri

How many tattoos would you like to have?
Not too huge on tattoos although I wouldn't put it past myself on eventually getting one that I'll probably change my mind about.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
I always do..

Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
Sea Wolf show at the Glass house with my Lo and Yakhee and Kat

Hablahblah

They will set you free

How good it feels

To go out and do what you like.
Talk to who you like.
Go where you like and actually have fun.
Mostly be with someone you like.

Enough about that.

Hola me llamo

Jade.





This picture is sponsored by Baby Gap™.

On another note, Red and Gold was fun. Everything felt normal for a night.

Hello my name is

Michael.

Ce qui a faire

I feel cliché for really liking pictures like this. Left building looks like a waiting platform for a subway system. Right building looks like a construction set up. Or a building in jail.

Well well

Dear life,

The struggle of convincing my parents to let me do independent studies is getting closer and closer to success. They're just as much annoyed with public school as I am. I just think it's a hassle going to such easy classes when you can just take them online and pass with in a couple of months. Is is possibly an easy way out of school? Maybe, but you'd think that I'd be lazy but I'm not. I don't mind doing the work at all anymore. I just wish I liked it more and appreciated what I was being taught at Rosary. Instead of just caring about my friends and art classes and who I'm going to see at 5th period. What a waste. I wasted my own time.

I regret a lot that I did my freshmen and sophomore year. If there was anytime I'd get an opportunity to take it all back. To not make Mrs. Norman cry. To not get kicked out of Rubalcaba's class. To try better and study for my english tests. To actually pay attention and not be in the 'bathroom' during health. I'd want to take back everything I did as well. My actions only fucked me over so much. I regret not putting time and effort into everything I did.

If only there was someone I can tell all this too, sign a contract, and just go back.
But there isn't. I'm going to learn how to drive, work on my GED and live a normal life with out having to worry about regrets. I missed my chance.

Sincerely, me

Well it's nice to see you too.

It's a mad house, this modern life

I've been working on a piece that speaks of sex and desperation.
I've been screwing on the tracks of abandoned train stations--



I'd like to live somewhere and be penniless but still feel content.
I'd like to walk barefoot on hard wood floor that doesn't creek.
I'd like to be indoors with windows open to let in a warm draft.
I'd like to have a big white empty room with a 15x18 foot canvas set up.
I'd like to have pots and pots of plants and flowers.
I'd like to have windows. An entire wall of glass windows.
I'd like to have a small iron balcony.
I'd like to walk around aimlessly knowing where I'll end up.
I'd like to feel accompanied when feeling alone.
I'd like to live happy someday.

For now I have friends whom I can feel like a 10 year old boy with.

A short tune

You're always wrong

So I painted yesterday
I got my morning face on, shut the fuck up.



Today, I saw Alice in Wonderland with Paul. Woop.
I think I would have enjoyed it more if it was like this.

I bet the beds are comfortable on mars

Dear birds that live in the vent above my bedroom window,

Please, stop shaking dust off of your feathered coats. You don't realize that I hear every movement and conversation you guys have. I don't care if the kids don't sleep during the day. I also don't care if they don't sleep at night. Just stop being so loud about it. I hope you know that I can hear when you try to sneak other birds into your nest, moma bird. That's right, while your husband is out looking for food and the children are finally put down to sleep, I hear his claws, perched on the pecked out wire you guys call your front door. Please, find it in the kindness of your little 460 beats per minute heart.

Sincerely, the person who lives below you.

p.s. Also, please stop doing your business off the side of your front door. When it's windy, all of it hits my window and I have to clean it the next day. Thank you.

I got a new phone

Hello

I am ready for tomorrow.
I am ready for them to x-ray my brain.
I am ready to face ze facts.
I am ready to move on.
I am ready to stop hearing about other peoples problems.
I am ready to stop complaining.
I am ready to leave school.
I am ready to drive?
I am ready to regret doing something that I'll regret.
I am ready to live ma life.
I am ready to start loving.
I am ready to go.
I am ready to stop wasting time.
I am ready to go everywhere barefooted.
I am ready to start acting my age and nothing younger.
I am ready to be normal again.
I am ready to be myself around anyone.
I am ready to tell off the lady in the attendance office.
I am ready to stop talking to you. You know who you fucking are.
I am ready to stop speaking figuratively.
I am ready to stop doing things to impress you.
I am ready to try something new.
I am ready to finish the painting I've been meaning to finish.
I am ready to start a new career.
I am ready to not be weak anymore.
I am ready to think for my own.
I am ready to stop 'crushing' on a person who has no interest in me.
I am ready to stop thinking there's someone I should miss.
I am ready to understand where people are coming from.
I am ready to forget this past year I wasted time on.
I am ready to stop fighting.
I am ready to start knowing.
I am ready to love the entire week because I haven't been at school a single day.

I love you, who ever you are.

Eastern glow

YYY

Leap year says what?

Home is anywhere with you



Literally, only the best essays are written at the last minute at 2 am.