Henny buggy

Gaby and I pwned knotts today and got in for $23.00,

 canna hear a wooowoo

Well, as some of 'you' know it's the time of the month.. Yes, finals are here. I will be off and on but mainly on because I avoid studying.

p.s. I've come around to scanning my favorite pictures from my developed pile. I do love my shelf of things. (see post above)

Trust me some time

Noise of the city

click on zee peekture

Blood red moon

I had a talk with my dad yesterday when we were in the car and he took me out of school about an hour earlier than usual. I've been getting my grades back and he's been seeing them and getting positive emails and all that good stuff from my teachers. Except from english, I recently got a detention for academic dishonesty.

I was told today when I went in to a meeting today for that situation, that when they put it on my record, they're not going to put it as 'academic dishonesty' because UC schools look for things like that. It says a lot about a person but it's a weird situation to explain so I'm not going to do it.

Again, I was talking to my dad and he said with the grades that I'm getting right now, I can easily apply for UC schools of my choice. This made me feel really good. Santa Barbara kept popping into my head. I don't know about UCSB, it seems as though that school recently keeps appearing everywhere, that's one for sure choice. Then UCSF comes to mind, then UCSC. I'll have more than enough time to think all this over.

Then.. THEN.. I get one phone call from Rosary that can change everything. Not exactly for the worse, Rosary is a "hard" school. Sunny hills absolutely is not. Oh well.

I'm finished now. I'm typing with mittens on.

Basic space

I don't like it. I'm beginning to like things I used to hate. Puzzles, electro, the news, I'm just going to stop right there..
Yeah everyone, it's raining. You know what else is happening? Lightning and thunder. Storms happen, just not as often as we're used to.

"I LOVE DRINKING and doing DRUGS WEED!"
Just...



edit: I wanted this post to look normal and short, but I took a nap today after I got home and now I can't go to zleep.

What are you thinking about?
putting on socks

How many funerals have you been to this year?
three

You get a text at 4 a.m. saying "come outside." what do you do?
I will probably not even look at my phone, I wake up for no one

Are you in a good mood?
I was in a bitter mood for an hour but I'm okay now, nervous

What do you bite more, your tongue, lip, or cheek?
My cheek when I'm in class

Is it easy to make you smile?
I laugh at unnecessary or inappropriate times

Are you starting to realize anything?
Everything

One thing you're looking forward to?
Mmm, seeing red and gold or rxb in the near future

Why did you cry the last time you did?
The same reason I always cry. It's never about anything different. I'm just tired

When you're walking, do you stop to drink?
I've trained myself not to, wastes time

Do you have a best friend to lean on?
I have a best friend to sleep on

Do you always use capital letters?
In the beginning of sentences

Do you like to wear your hair up or down?
I'd like to wear it down, but it's in no condition to do so

If someone gave you $500, what would you spend it on?
3 day pass for Coachella/ camp ground fee/ food/ another puppy/ cupcakes

Do you know what a haiku is?
First line five syllables, second line seven, last line five

Can you draw "&" with a pencil?
I can also draw it with a pen or crayon

Do you get upset when you wake up from a phone call or text?
I wake up for no one, again

Do you like to cuddle?
Depends. Gaby and I have been over this, she needs to cut her toe nails.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Andrew

Did you dance today?
More like thrusting

Are you male or female?
Both O_O

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
I can't remember in front of, but over the phone is different.

Angry at anyone?
Mother Nature and George W Bush

Do you want to see somebody right now?
I shouldn't

Need to get something off your chest?
B00bs

Would you date the person you last kissed?
Mmm no

Look to your right, what do you see?
Wall and night table

What does your 8th text say and who is it from?
From Jasmine, "haha yeah you remembered it, lol"
(only I would take the time to look through my phone..)

How often do you talk to this person?
Once in a while

Your ex is walking next to you, what do you do?
Say hello.

What was the last movie you watched at home?
Thumbsucker

Where on your body hurts?
My stomach, back and neck. But my back and neck always hurt.

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
BEER PONGING IT IN GARAGES WITH RED CUPZ. yes

Do you always find it cute when guys/girls call you babe/baby?
Uuuuugggh, I've accepted it from one person and one person only.

Do you like flowers?
I do

Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
I do I do I do

Last person who said "I hate you" to you?
These will always be Gaby's last dying words.

Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?
My entire iTunes. It sucks.

Is confidence cute?
I don't really care, just don't be in a fucking shell

The last person that made you angry, did you tell them?
No, I can't just say it.

Ever really cried your heart out?
Shut up.

Do you like road trips?
They're grrrreat

What is your new years resolution?
I haven't had a new years resolution in three years

Afraid of losing someone?
No

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
That's I'm asleep or thinking of being upset soon or just stupid

Which is harder, telling someone you love them or that you don't?
Telling someone you love them. I stutter or get too nervous

Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
Oh, yes there is. Was. Is. I think it's bad that I'm used to it.

Are you ready to get out of this town?
And go where? I'm ready to grow up and get shit done, I don't need to leave.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Never do

What's so special about what you're wearing?
It wasn't on purpose, Kairos shirt and Rosary sweats..

Are you currently angry with someone?
Nope

Do you get mad or get even?
Mad at first but again, it probably doesn't matter enough to fester on it

Would you ever consider piercing your lip?
Eh, no

Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something they did?
Yeah, I was told I was being a dick because I didn't react positively to my best friends boyfriend and her being together. There, I said it.

What are you wearing tomorrow?
Clothing optional friday

Do you know anyone whose name starts with a z?
Yep, I do

Pancakes or french toast?
Crepes or waffles

Number of pillows?
Four

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
I can't hear it if it's at a reasonable level

Are you perfect?
Yes, yes I am, I'm also the countess of Genovia

Everything happens for a reason?
Things happen because you're not careful or not paying attention

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Most likely. Who plans that?

Un elephante

Molesta mucho gente

he's not even doing anything...

Leisure suit

Tout doux, tout doux, tout doucement
La vie je la comprends

That song makes me cringe and twirl and collapse into myself. I can listen to it all day and I don't even care if I can't understand it.

Kits 'n Pups

I was listening to miike snow and seconds later thought of where the wild things are and vomited this picture myself.



I developed my two rolls of film today. I'm satisfied on how they turned out.

I have a couple experiments I want to try out on bulb speeeed. Saweet.

Cacophony

I am not kidding when I state that I spent two hours, after breakfast, auto-completing on google and laughing out loud. Some mexican is in my front yard racking leaves so I'm safely in the living room out of harms way. I'm supposed to help her but who makes a mess in their front yard so bad that they have to clean.. that was a stupid thing to say.

In the spur of the moment, I'm going to the beach right now. Well, in half an hour when the mexican is done racking my front yard.

Best friend picture

I laughed out loud for about four minutes at her face.

Club sandwiches

I'm sick today. I watched Welcome to the Dollhouse and Thumbsucker. I forgot how much I liked that movie. Lady Gaga was on Oprah so I for sure watched that.

I found my sophomore rosary agenda in my drawer yesterday. I also found that I drew stupid pointless things on important dates. Important dates that weren't relevant to school work. In stead of getting rid of it, I put it back where I found it. I would regret it someday if I were to have thrown it away.

Thievery

"I'm getting ice cold diarrhea from drinking too much jamba juice."

We've got a lot to move

Ohh dearest dinner, why can't you be candy?

I can't see myself doing certain things. Dating certain people. Fuck all of this, I'm going to play COD till I have rugby at 7:00.

Homosexual thought of the day: when I listen to Minus the Bear, I feel like I'm undersea, sinking to the bottom. I always think under water ever since I saw the Pachuca Sunrise video.

no picture, no room on my hard drive to save pictures :(

Isla vista

Is an experience. The streets smell like coffee and pizza.. We left long beach at 4 and arrived at Biko house at 7 something. Good good good good good show/ set. It was worth the smell of sweat, the long drive, not being able to sleep in the car (on the way there), seeing things I've recently seen before, freezing, and the empty stomach on the drive home. I'd say it's 100% worth it.

I stayed home today because of the time I got home last night. I didn't realize I wasn't at school until I literally opened my eyes. Sometimes in class, I fall asleep and forget I'm at school so you'd understand if I were to write that first...

I watched Whip it! this morning while eating breakfast, took pictures of my pups and at lunch, watched Adam. Both great movies, especially Adam.

So now, I'm going to write more and after play COD MW2. I bought Call of Duty friday and have yet to play it.

edit:

I don't read poetry like an obsessive angsty teenager who hates themselves, oops. My english teacher showed me this poem and I've been reading it since--it's become my favorite poem.

When I heard the learn'd astronomer

When I heard the learn'd astronomer;
When the proofs, the figures, were ranged in columns before me;
When I was shown the charts and the diagrams, to add, divide, and
measure them;
When I, sitting, heard the astronomer, where he lectured with much
applause in the lecture-room,
How soon, unaccountable, I became tired and sick;
Till rising and gliding out, I wander'd off by myself,
In the mystical moist night-air, and from time to time,
Look'd up in perfect silence at the stars.

But we'll miss it all

Soon, maybe tomorrow I'll do my 'spring cleaning' of all of my sentimental possessions. I've figured they haven't much use to them anyways, except acting like a bookmark so I can pick up where I left off, or being hidden between books in my book case. Possibly hide the one thing that gives me assurance and security (no gaby, I will not burn it). I think it's time to let go and put it all away. If I can, maybe throw some stuff away and stop talking myself out of it. These reminders aren't healthy to keep, even if I may swear to myself it's mutual.

Alright, I'm finished being a homosexual.

Tomorrow I am leaving to Santa Barbara to see Brown & Blue at Biko house. I've looked forward to this ALL week, which made the week go by faster. Santa Barbara and Disneyland are what made my week fly. Ahhh my god, how sweet it will be.

Ever since tuesday, I've been reading Leaves of Grass.
Ever since monday, I've been listening to Fleet Foxes.
Ever since sunday, I've been watching Science channel.
Ever since saturday, I've been looking at online art blogs.

X Y

I have nothing to say. The week is going by at 50 mph and it couldn't matter to me more than a pray-mantis doing a tap number. What am I going to do in the future.

Dean, James Dean

Admitting to someone you think they're attractive is awkward. Hearing it back is funny-awkward considering I go to school everyday looking my hottest in big t-shirts, sweatshirts, hair in a bun and jeans. On occasion slippers.

English stained my hand. My thumb looks like a penis.
Anyways, Hi Gibbens.

My appreciation to you

"Look around you. Look harder and you will see that there are more things in your life and in this world that are more important and just as beautiful and amazing. I'm not talking necessarily about people in your life, but also about situations, actions, objects, everything. Just look around you Cris. Open your eyes and be more awake. You'll realize just how great this world is. How beautiful life could be. It's all on you Cris.. don't just let on person ruin it for you. Don't let one person get in the way of you living your life. It's not a matter of not letting it happen. Fate is what determines whether things happen or not. It's a matter of you letting it go, slowly. Think of things you appreciate more."

She doesn't know this, but I read this every time I'm feeling dumb for a reason that is impossible to feel dumb about. *sapppy*

Tell me this

Why have I already sewn the back of two pairs of shoes. Stupid dog.
I've finally gotten 400 speed 15 mm film for my AE-1 Cannon. The shutter sound is my favorite part, and winding it. Somewhat excited for Santa Barbara next weekend. Brown and Blue is touring starting either today or sunday (tomorrow), gaaah. I'm pretty whatever about going back to school, doesn't matter. Vacation was veddy nice.. psych.

King rat

has me on his list again. I don't think I can get tired of that song. Unless I worked somewhere and it was playing excessively. I'm going to chug a bottle of nyquil and sleep till 9:00am then go to practice. My first blog post of this year is so meaningful, I'm crying, and jerking. Tear jerker. Fuck jerking, beef jerky.